On Funding Woes

I have a TAship for next year. Yay! No other funding attempts have worked in my favor this year.

Hubby's application for a doctoral program was rejected. This means no more schooling for him for a while, no job, and no more deferment for student loan payments. Hubby's application to study in Berlin this summer was also denied. This means Hubby is sad, but surprisingly still optimistic.

I haven't really heard back about my funding applications. I applied for more Central Asian language training and received no feedback until today. The e-mail is different than last year's. I have been accepted to study, but no news about funding. The e-mail simply states "funding decisions will be made within the month." What does that mean??? I think it means the university will waive my tuition but not give me $2,500 as hoped for. What does that mean? I think I'm spending the summer on my porch writing Geraldine, not working on my proficiency in a Central Asian langauge.... but I'm not sure yet. Indiana wasn't very happy when I told him that I had reapplied for funding. In fact, if I register for classes, I think he'll drop me as a student.  Nevertheless, I feel torn. I want to improve my proficiency, but I am worried about not having enough time for Geraldine. Plus, without a large cost of living stipend, I can't afford to drive to the other state university every day as I had planned to when I applied for funding back in January. *sigh* Decisions, decisions.

Still no news about the library fellowship or anything else I've been waiting to hear about. Some days it's easy to wait, others I think everything is doomed and I'm going to have to live off of my savings, and others I think I'm in for more than I baragained for. The only things that comforts me is knowing that  1) I will make it through this regardless of waiting patiently or impatiently and 2) I will become a doctor at some point.

Until then, I will continue to wait and wonder.